In May I posted about some of the changes in my life. I felt that things were moving forward, looking up. While change is still underfoot, I can’t help but feel less optimistic. For starters, the house has still not sold. The market is tanking nationwide and I decided to conveniently get divorced during the downslide. I’m having trouble even finding someone to rent it. Don’t people need housing? Then there’s the sad death of my Macbook. Owning this house has drained my once abundant savings to almost nothing, so I’m not sure how soon I can replace the sparkling white gem of modern electronic communication.
Am I being punished for going after a higher level of happiness? I was taught to not be content with “just enough”, but I am struggling to find the energy to stay positive in this very challenging year. I remember telling a friend “I hope 2007 is the worst year I have.” As the year comes to its final few months, I still hope that is true. 2008 has got to be better. Even November and December have got to be better. I know I have a lot to be grateful for, but I feel that for every step forward, I get knocked a few steps back.
